LISTENING AND TRACKING

THE ART OF HEARING WHAT SOMEONE IS NOT SAYING 

What if one of the greatest gifts you could ever give another human being was not your advice, your wisdom, your solutions, or even your love, but your undivided attention?

I have been thinking deeply about the difference between hearing someone and truly listening to them. There is something profoundly beautiful about being in the presence of another human being who is not waiting for their turn to speak, not preparing a defense, not searching for a solution, and not trying to change what you are feeling. They are simply there, fully present, listening with their heart as much as their ears.

I believe one of the greatest expressions of love is making another person feel genuinely seen, heard, and understood. And yet, I wonder how many of us have spent our lives hearing people without ever truly learning how to listen.

Listening and tracking are not the same as simply hearing words. They require emotional awareness, spiritual maturity, humility, and the willingness to set our own egos aside long enough to understand another person's experience.

When I say I am listening and tracking you, I mean I am paying attention to more than the sentences leaving your mouth. I am noticing your emotions, the pauses between your words, the patterns in your behavior, the changes in your voice, and perhaps even the feelings you have not yet found the courage or language to express.

Sometimes a person says, "I'm fine," while everything about their presence suggests they are hurting. Sometimes anger is simply fear that has learned to protect itself. Sometimes defensiveness is the armor of someone who has spent a lifetime feeling misunderstood. Sometimes silence is not rejection at all. It is someone trying desperately to find the words for something they have never felt safe enough to say.

But here is where emotional maturity becomes essential. Noticing something does not mean we automatically know what it means. We can observe a change in someone's behavior without assuming we understand their motives. We can recognize a pattern without diagnosing them. We can sense sadness without insisting they are sad.

True listening requires curiosity rather than certainty.

Instead of saying, "I know exactly what you're doing," perhaps we learn to ask, "Can you help me understand what you're feeling?"

Instead of assuming someone's silence means they are angry, perhaps we gently ask, "I noticed you became quiet. Is there something on your heart?"

And instead of interpreting everything through our own wounds, perhaps we begin to recognize that another person's emotional experience does not always have something to do with us.

THIS IS WHERE RECOVERY CHANGES EVERYTHING. 🌿

For many of us, especially those who have lived through trauma, addiction, dysfunction, abandonment, or emotionally unsafe relationships, listening was not always about understanding. Sometimes it was about survival.

We learned to read the room before we ever learned to read ourselves. We studied facial expressions, listened for changes in tone, anticipated moods, and tried to predict what might happen next. We became exceptionally good at noticing other people's emotions because, at one time, our own sense of safety may have depended upon it.

But there is an important distinction between emotional awareness and hypervigilance.

One comes from presence. The other often comes from fear.

One says, "I want to understand you."

The other says, "I need to figure you out so I can feel safe."

And sometimes, without realizing it, we confuse the two.

I believe this is especially important for those of us who have struggled with codependency, rescuing, people pleasing, or the exhausting need to manage everyone else's emotions. We may believe we are being loving when we are actually trying to control an outcome. We may believe we are helping when we are interrupting another person's opportunity to discover their own answers.

I have had to learn that being emotionally available to someone does not mean becoming responsible for their emotional experience.

I can listen to your pain without making it mine. I can recognize your fear without allowing it to control my decisions. I can love you without rescuing you. I can sit beside you in uncertainty without demanding an immediate resolution.

And perhaps most importantly, I can understand why you behave a certain way without excusing behavior that hurts me.

Compassion does not require abandoning discernment. Empathy does not mean surrendering boundaries. And understanding someone's wounds does not make me responsible for healing them.

THE SPIRITUAL WORK OF LISTENING 🙏🏼

In recovery, particularly through the principles of Alcoholics Anonymous, I am continually reminded that sobriety is about so much more than putting down a drink. It is about examining the attitudes, fears, resentments, and character defects that interfere with our relationships with God, ourselves, and other people.

Step Ten teaches us to continue taking personal inventory. It asks us to become aware when selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, or fear begin influencing our behavior. It teaches us to acknowledge our mistakes, seek God's guidance, and correct our course.

And I believe these principles apply beautifully to the way we listen.

Am I listening to understand, or am I listening to defend myself? Am I genuinely interested in what this person is experiencing, or am I searching for evidence that supports what I already believe? Am I offering compassion, or am I secretly trying to influence their choices so that I can feel more comfortable?

Those are not always easy questions to ask ourselves.

Because sometimes the greatest obstacle to listening is not the other person's inability to communicate. It is our own inability to become quiet.

Our ego wants to be right. Our fear wants reassurance. Our pride wants the final word. Our wounds want protection. And our need for control wants everything resolved immediately.

But spiritual growth invites us into something much gentler.

It asks us to become still.

To pray before reacting. To listen before assuming. To become willing to understand rather than needing to win.

WHEN CONNECTION REPLACES CONTROL 🤍

There is a tenderness that develops when we stop treating every conversation as a problem to solve.

Imagine someone sitting across from you, sharing something deeply painful. Perhaps they are grieving, struggling in their sobriety, questioning their worth, or carrying a burden they have never spoken aloud.

What if, instead of telling them what they should do, you simply listened?

What if you allowed their tears without rushing to stop them? What if you let them finish their thoughts without interrupting? What if you resisted the temptation to tell your own story and simply gave theirs the space it deserved?

There is something profoundly healing about being able to speak without fear of correction, criticism, or judgment.

Not every conversation needs a lesson. Not every tear needs an explanation. Not every uncomfortable silence needs to be filled.

Sometimes people are not asking us to carry their burdens. They are simply asking us not to turn away while they are carrying them.

And I think that is one of the most beautiful ways we can be of service to another human being.

BUT HOW DO WE ACTUALLY LEARN TO LISTEN THIS WAY? 🌸

We begin by practicing the very principles recovery teaches us.

First, we become aware of ourselves. Before entering a difficult conversation, we ask whether we are emotionally available to listen. Are we carrying resentment? Are we anxious? Are we trying to prove something? Are we bringing yesterday's wounds into today's conversation?

Then we practice slowing down. We allow people to finish speaking. We resist rehearsing our responses while they are still talking. We ask thoughtful questions rather than making assumptions, and when we notice something beneath their words, we approach it with gentleness rather than certainty.

We learn to validate feelings without necessarily agreeing with every interpretation or behavior. We remember that two people can experience the same situation differently and that understanding another person's perspective does not require abandoning our own.

We also learn when to step away. Listening with love does not mean tolerating manipulation, disrespect, or emotional abuse. Sometimes the most spiritually mature response is to recognize that a conversation is no longer healthy and return to it when both people can communicate respectfully.

And through prayer and meditation, we practice becoming quiet enough to recognize the difference between God's guidance and our own fearful desire to control.

THE GREATEST LESSON I AM LEARNING

I want to be the kind of woman whose presence makes people feel lighter. I want people to know that when they speak to me, I am not merely waiting for an opportunity to offer my wisdom. I am genuinely interested in their hearts, their experiences, their struggles, and the things they may not yet understand about themselves.

But I also recognize that I am a student of this work.

There will be moments when I interrupt. Moments when my ego gets involved. Moments when I misunderstand someone or allow my own experiences to influence what I believe they are saying.

And when that happens, I want to remain humble enough to acknowledge it, apologize when necessary, and try again.

Because spiritual maturity is not perfection. It is awareness, accountability, willingness, and growth.

I do not want to become so skilled at reading other people that I forget to examine myself. I do not want to become so focused on understanding another person's wounds that I neglect my own healing.

And I certainly do not want to confuse being needed with being loving.

MY FINAL THOUGHT 🌿

Perhaps the deepest form of listening begins when we stop making another person's story about ourselves.

When we no longer need to rescue them, correct them, impress them, or convince them that we understand everything they are experiencing.

When we can sit beside another human being and allow them the dignity of being exactly where they are in their journey.

Because sometimes love does not arrive with answers. Sometimes it arrives as patience, compassion, a gentle question, or a quiet presence that says, "I am here, and I am listening."

And perhaps that is also how we begin to hear God more clearly. Not through the noise of our own opinions, fears, and demands, but through the stillness that comes when we surrender our need to control.

I am learning that I do not have to have the right words to be a loving presence. I simply have to be willing to listen with an open heart, remain teachable, and remember that another person's soul is not mine to fix.

Sometimes the greatest gift we can give someone is the freedom to be heard without having to be repaired.

And sometimes, the person who needs that same tenderness, patience, and understanding is the one looking back at us in the mirror.

May we learn to listen to others with compassion, to ourselves with honesty, and to God with humility. 🙏🏼

She Chose Herself 2012 ✍️
The Healing Cheff 🌿

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