Happy Heavenly Birthday Mom | A Letter to My New Mexican Queen

Happy Heavenly Birthday, Mom. 

Today you would have been 79 years old, and somehow I can still see your beautiful face so clearly. Your smile could melt a heart in seconds, and your eyes always sparkled with kindness, warmth, and love.

You were genuine, Mom. Truly genuine. The kind of woman people felt safe around. Everyone loved you.

As a little girl, I know I gave you a hard time sometimes. I argued with you and did not always understand why you were so strict with me. But now, as a grown woman, I thank God for it. Your strength, your guidance, your discipline, and your protection shaped me into the woman I am today.

After Daddy died, you had to carry the weight of being both mother and father. I cannot even imagine how hard that must have been for you. Daddy was so protective of us, and when he passed, you stepped into a role you never asked for. You carried pain, responsibility, grief, motherhood, and survival all at once, and somehow you still loved us deeply through it all.

And Mom… you could cook unlike anybody else. ❤️

I did not realize how special that was until I started going into other people’s homes and tasting their food. That is when I understood… my mother truly knew what she was doing in the kitchen. You cooked with love. You fed people with care. Your food brought comfort, warmth, and connection. I carry that part of you inside me every single day when I cook for others.

I know you see me, Mom.

I know you see the people I feed, the women I help, the lives I pour into, and the love I try to give this world. I believe a huge part of who I am came from you.

You also gave me my love for reading and writing. You planted that seed in me, and now writing helps me heal, process life, and stay connected to myself and to God.

I want you to know I am okay, Mom.

I have beautiful friends now. The kind of friends you would absolutely love. I have people around me who truly care for me, encourage me, and protect my heart. I am loved deeply.

And most importantly, Mom… I finally have peace inside myself.

No alcohol.
No drugs.
No chaos.
No escaping.

Just peace.
Just healing.
Just truth.

Just like you always wanted for me.

I know you are in a beautiful place now. No pain. No sadness. No exhaustion. No grief. Just love, light, peace, and perfection.

You are with your mother now.
With Daddy.
With your brothers and sisters.

And now with Billy.

That one still hurts, Mom. It is still so fresh. Saying his name still catches my breath sometimes.

But I promise you this:
I will continue to grow.
I will continue to heal.
I will continue to awaken.
I will continue to thrive.

I feel alive inside, Mom.
Truly alive.

Today you would have been celebrated so big. Spoiled by your grandchildren and great grandchildren. You would laugh seeing how much our family has grown.

We really are multiplying like little New Mexican bunnies. ❤️

I miss you terribly.
I love you endlessly.
And I carry you with me always.

Happy Heavenly Birthday to my beautiful New Mexican TAURUS Queen. 👑